Misogyny is trauma.
It can be unlearned & healed as much as any trauma can be unlearned & healed.
But it usually isn't.
Most trauma unconsciously guides our lives because of:
1) Shame: We don't want to admit what our trauma has taught us.
2) Inertia: We are comfortable with the structures & beliefs that have worked for us so far.
3) Defensiveness: We have many protection mechanisms in place to keep us from experiencing pain & discomfort.
Having to maintain my relationship to the #narcissist that abused me is becoming the biggest challenge of my life. No contact is not an option as we have kids.
I'm processing the emotional abuse I experienced. I'm grieving the woman that never was her. It's a lot of very raw and very intense emotions.
And I'm doing all of that while I need to regularly interact with my abuser. It's a gigantic mind fuck.
I'm reclaiming a lot of my agency by #yellowRocking extensively. Killing her with kindness. Ignoring her emotional baits that are meant to trigger a fight I'd lose anyway. I'm getting #revenge by being my best fucking self. Let the kids see that unconditional kindness is possible while enforcing boundaries.
But I'm not gonna lie. It takes my everything. Being kind to my abuser when everything in me screams for justice is a challenge like no other. #RadicalAcceptance is most definitely non-optional.
I might not win the battles but I will win the war.
Processing #narcissisticAbuse requires you to upheave your entire world. It requires you to recontextualize the entire relationship you had with the person who abused you. It requires looking at things again and realizing that this situation was in fact abusive. That making you feel confusion, hurt, sadness, and especially fear, were not a mistake but the intention.
You need to do all that while grieving the loss of the person you thought you loved. They were never real. And I really mean never. They were a fabrication created by a predator that exploited your psychological weaknesses to devour you like a lion.
This will sound crass to some of you. Many will think I'm exaggerating. But those of you who survived narcissistic abuse know: what I wrote doesn't even come close to capturing the horror of realizing that the person you loved never loved you back but instead only sought to dominate and exploit you as a source of narcissistic supply.
War and Trauma US Army In Kuwait, His Story. Podcast Episode. In the early hours of March 23, 2003, as the world turned its attention toward the launch of Operation Iraqi Freedom, a very different kind of war was unfolding in the desert shadows of Kuwait. #Free #Podcast #Radio #Trauma https://www.letradio.com/war-and-trauma-us-army-in-kuwait/?utm_source=Mastodon
#gaza #palestine #civilians #siblings #children #loss #suffering #pain #deaths #killings #trauma #endisraelswarcrimes #stopisrael #brutality #violence
A wounded #Palestinian teenage-girl under shock - she just survived an #Israeli attack but lost family members.
#gaza #palestine #civilians #siblings #parents #children #deaths #killings #pain #trauma #loss #endisraelswarcrimes #stopisrael #bibi #netanyahu #childmurder
The body of a little #Palestinian boy who was #MurderedbyIsrael being touched by his sibling's hand for a last goodbye. Thousands of #Gazan children have lost their brothers and sisters.
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Overnight via our @opencollective page we received almost a €100 contribution from a group called Solidarity with Ukrainian Refugees. With no other way to contact them, we give a massive thanks here! Maybe they'll read it....
That amount is about enough to buy three TCCC approved tourniquets, which in the case of catastrophic haemorrhage could save three lives.
Thank you!
#gaza #palestine #civilians #siblings #parents #children #loss #suffering #pain #trauma #deaths #killings #endisraelswarcrimes #stopisrael #bibi #netanyahu #childmurder
#MurderedbyIsrael
A #Palestinian boy in mourning next to the body of his brother.
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#gaza #palestine #civilians #siblings #parents #children #loss #suffering #pain #trauma #deaths #killings #endisraelswarcrimes #stopisrael #bibi #netanyahu #childmurder
#MurderedbyIsrael
A #Palestinian boy in mourning touches the head of his dead brother before the body is buried.
#picturesthatdontneedcaptions
I just rediscovered two old posts/threads of mine, that explain pretty well, why I want to go into pedagogy now (I didn't know it back then - too busy working on my depression and hating school):
Content warning: Childhood trauma
https://climatejustice.social/@PaulaToThePeople/111490472007434009
https://climatejustice.social/@PaulaToThePeople/111187258270534141
I want to protect children.
I want to provide them a save environment to thrive and talk about their troubles.
In a perfect school system kids would learn mental hygiene and get therapy before they learn integrals and the uncritical history of wars and power abuse. That would prevent so much domestic abuse, because it would be caught early.
And teaching kids emotional and social competence before teaching them applied capitalism will prevent abuse, division, exploitation and hate in the future.
I want to teach children to be happier than me, less abusive than my stepdad, more empathetic than my mom and more protective of future generations than my teachers were.
That's why I'm studying animal assisted pedagogy and will start studying social pedagogy, trauma pedagogy and environmental pedagogy this fall.
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Those texts about #trauma-#informed beeing-#autistic I found resonating:
http://traumageek.com/blog/discovering-a-trauma-informed-positive-autisticnbspidentity
http://traumageek.com/blog/lost-in-translation-the-social-language-theory-of-neurodivergence
http://traumageek.com/blog/social-language-theory-part-2
(the third one not so much anymore, but it is the sequel to the second one).
Therein I find #educational value to bring #neurodiversity #awareness to groups wanting #diversity-#inclusion but are not aware of neurodiversity: Where there can be diversity too, and how can it look for example.
"𝙸 𝚑𝚊𝚝𝚎 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚠𝚊𝚢 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚑𝚞𝚖𝚊𝚗 𝚙𝚜𝚢𝚌𝚑𝚎 𝚠𝚘𝚛𝚔𝚜, 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚠𝚊𝚢 𝚠𝚎 𝚊𝚛𝚎 𝚝𝚛𝚊𝚞𝚖𝚊𝚝𝚒𝚣𝚎𝚍 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚜𝚝𝚞𝚙𝚒𝚍𝚕𝚢 𝚒𝚖𝚙𝚛𝚒𝚗𝚝𝚎𝚍 𝚒𝚗 𝚎𝚊𝚛𝚕𝚢 𝚌𝚑𝚒𝚕𝚍𝚑𝚘𝚘𝚍 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚑𝚊𝚟𝚎 𝚝𝚘 𝚜𝚙𝚎𝚗𝚍 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚛𝚎𝚜𝚝 𝚘𝚏 𝚘𝚞𝚛 𝚕𝚒𝚟𝚎𝚜 𝚝𝚛𝚢𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚝𝚘 𝚘𝚟𝚎𝚛𝚌𝚘𝚖𝚎 𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚜𝚎 𝚒𝚗𝚏𝚊𝚗𝚝𝚒𝚕𝚎 𝚖𝚎𝚗𝚝𝚊𝚕 𝚏𝚒𝚡𝚊𝚝𝚒𝚘𝚗𝚜. 𝙰𝚗𝚍 𝚠𝚎 𝚗𝚎𝚟𝚎𝚛 𝚎𝚟𝚎𝚛 𝚏𝚞𝚕𝚕𝚢 𝚜𝚞𝚌𝚌𝚎𝚎𝚍 𝚒𝚗 𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚜 𝚎𝚗𝚍𝚎𝚊𝚟𝚘𝚛."
─ 𝘙𝘰𝘣𝘦𝘳𝘵 𝘊𝘳𝘶𝘮𝘣
Some comforting words for a #Sunday for all #activists out there, from Dr #GaborMaté. He posted yesterday on the concept of "moral injury", as we are bearing witness to the #genocide in #Gaza #Palestine. It resonates all the more that Maté is himself a #holocaust survivor and #trauma specialist. Have a good Sunday everyone!
Long time ago, in a faraway land, when I was a medium sized lass, I hurt my back. No one actually figured out why it happened. Looking back I realize, 50% of it was depression and the rest of 50% was because I couldn’t lie down horizontally at night because of said depression. Only way I could get any sleep at night was if I curled up like a ball and used pillows to prop me up. Never told any one this, even the doctor who treated me. Cause I felt like I did something wrong and it was my fault.
This my very roundabout way of saying that don’t treat/raise your children as if they can’t come to you with their problems without feeling guilt or shame. #mentalhealth #parenting #trauma
Die Belastung von Medienleuten durch grausames #Bildmaterial ist durch Kriege und Katastrophen immer weiter gestiegen - und auch die Aufmerksamkeit für das Problem.
Ende Mai gebe ich dazu ein Tagesseminar mit der Traumatherapeutin Fee Rojas in Hannover. Auch #Freie Medienschaffende können sich anmelden.
#Trauma #Selfcare #Fortbildung
Bei Interesse hier entlang: 
#gaza #palestine #civilians #loss #suffering #pain #trauma #deaths #killings #endisraelswarcrimes #stopisrael #bibi #netanyahu #orphans
A little boy touches his father's hand for a last goodbye. He is one of almost 40,000 #Palestinian children who lost a parent or both parents during the 534 days of #genocide in #Gaza.
I am a struggling person looking to form (or find) a serious support & crisis network with others focused on dealing with serious life struggles! As there is a severe lack of options for some of us on that.
Please DM me for more details if your interested! Am always available and in need! 
#LARB Radio Hour talks with #PankajMishra about his new book, "#TheWorldAfterGaza: A History”
"[H]ow the legacy of the Holocaust has shaped the contemporary world order, including how it has shaped the government of #Israel, and the current war in #Gaza. The book grapples with how, within the relentless violence of the 20th century, #trauma can lead to #nationalism, and also how one #genocide can lead to another."
https://lareviewofbooks.org/av/pankaj-mishras-the-world-after-gaza-a-history/
Farah 
