Ich lese „Behinderung“.
Aber ich funktioniere. Nur anders.
Nicht defekt. Nicht falsch.
Ich bin nicht behindert durch mich selbst.
Ich werde behindert durch Menschen und durch das was sie "normal" nennen.

Quickie personal hat project. Made it, using a Brother SE1900 sewing & embroidery machine. The hardest part was pinning the hat firmly. The actual embroidery itself was fast since it was done by a machine.

Some of you already know this: I've been trying to (literally) work through #AuDHD burnout for months now. It's been going as well as one might expect, which is to say Very Much Not Good, to the point of pushing me into a crisis.

The ADHD assessment I recently paid for was... let's not go there. I posted about it previously, but I've had time to think, and I'm angry. Way too angry to discuss it further right now. (User-pay Autism assessments cost way more, btw.)

So when your best option fails, what do you do?

The health care and "mental health" systems where I live are a colossal mess. Either you have money to find the right solutions or you're forced into the publicly-funded Tiny Little Box. You fit into that, or good friggin' luck.

It's quite an experience for your brand-new primary care provider try to push you into a situation that doesn't feel safe, and then discover that the alleged two-week wait is nearly two months.

But then.

In a way I never imagined, support came from an unexpected direction.

So I moved from anxiety level 11 to about 3.5 in record time.

Also unexpected is I've shifted from crisis mode to a Gen-X menopausal intersectional feminist rage cauldron.

Which means my already-overloaded neurodivergent brain has moved into a new phase of decolonization. (I pity the next fool who tries to tell me to be quiet and fit in.)

But the big lesson here is the value of people who actually give a damn. The people who can hold space, and who understand what "grace" means. The people who value you as a human being, not a problem to be solved, not a pathology, or a set of symptoms. The people who don't have to know all the details to have your back.

We need more of those people. I'm so grateful I have some of them in my life.

I'm by no means on solid ground but lemme tell ya, the rage cauldron is 1000% better than existential terror.

y'all, there's a very real chance I'm going to need to get out of the US soon

their war on autistic kids is terrifying

Trump has already said trans people are next

I wish more people understood how dangerous things are right now

help

There’s no way back, but there is a way forward.

The way I see it, autistic anxiety isn't mysterious, unexpected, or shameful. It makes sense. But it also isn't inevitable.

I'd love to share with you how I got a handle on it, so it's really not much of a part of my life anymore. This framework, and concrete techniques, consistently work for my Autistic/AuDHD clients as well.

https://www.autismchrysalis.com/anxiety

#ActuallyAutistic #Autistic #AuDHD #Neurospicy #Neurodiversity @actuallyautistic

I know for some of us ADHDers, self-care can be a challenge.

So I’m sharing that I’m making myself breakfast with protein in it because it helps my days go better.

Because it’s food with protein (obviously)

But it also means I’m being present/conscious about considering my self as important.

I’m celebrating it for the times it’s hard to do it.

You aren’t alone.

#adhd #selfcare #neurodivergent #mentalhealth #AuDHD

Cc @actuallyadhd @actuallyautistic

This is the first time I have ever had a fellow #AuDHD as a kindred companion & it feels amazing. The mutual understanding & spiritual bond we share has brightened up both of our lives. I have never felt this level of naturally flowing, deeply profound, intimate connection with anyone else before.
I treasure this unexpected, sacred blessing. I am immensely grateful

Autistic burnout recovery is, in its essence, about aligning our internal and our external realities.

I'm not that extroverted but yeah they do balance each other
The AUDHD Dilemma! #adhdproblems #audhd #autismawareness
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2dK5HSv4QLM

An #introduction for the new server!

I'm Thraeryn, The Embodiment of RED. https://blog.thraeryn.red/i-am-red/

I am the Villain of hackers.town.

Middle-aged. White. Cis. Queer. Card-carrying Communist. Wrestling fan. Tejano. #AuDHD. Tourette syndrome.

I am a silly sweetheart who revels in absurdity.
I am a vain, domineering tyrant.
I am the star moving eternally away from you.
I am RED.

A reusavolutionary "Digital Display Platform".

Not all activity is productive, and not all productivity is active.

MUTUAL AID POST 5/120

y'all, I need help affording marijuana for my PTSD

I need $120 for it

my followers know the kind of crap I've been going through lately, and I really need the help

if you can spare anything, I would really appreciate it

thanks in advance, and boost if you can

Venmo is tsbarnes
CashApp is tskybarnes

Does anybody here with #AuDHD struggle with finishing games once you move your focus onto something else? There have been times where I put a game on hold, did other stuff, and forget about the one I initially started. I feel really bad about doing this because there are people who put their heart and soul into crafting games, and by not finishing them, it's like putting all that hard work to waste. There are even cases where I intentionally drop the game altogether, but I feel the worst there.